confustion

It's a mystery.
Do you believe the horoscope?
the horoscope in Chinese is a mystery, some person who can see you clearly.you just tell them your birth day, even you don't , you can show them your palm.they will tell you what was going on in your past. then tell you the future.people always wanna know what's the future like,especially chinese people.well, I watched many movies about the back to the future or time machine and so on.obviously, the chinese film makers don't have enough money to make that.
so they image the future though horoscope.

do you believe that?

well, I am not sure whether they can figure out the future of western people.
even they can, I guess the western people don't believe that.

a traditional horoscope in Chinese.


I do believe that.
cause they always can figure out my past clearly.I don't know how, but they really can tell me my past in every year.only I don't like my future as they said, I will have much money in the future,nice career,but the marriage could not be happy.I always hope I can have a happily family. seems I can't own my happy ending.

if you were me, would you prefer the money or happiness?

then another mystery is traditional chinese medicial science.
they touch your pulse softly, and your disease clear out.
I went to clinic of chinese medicial science, cause I have some health problem
but I don't wanna go to western clinic, they don't know my problem cause I don't have clear symptom, but the chinese medicial science can see my health problem.

that's strange, the chinese culture is gorgeous, the history is lengthy, but see what was the matter in the past thousand years?

it's worth to discuss it.

goals

there's something I have to do, like the movie I just watched it witch is Julie and Julia. both of them didn't know what they should do firstly, but they knew there's something they must do to make life meaningful. I love this movie, though I can't cook, well...perhaps I can cook the simple receipts, but I think that doesn't mean I cook.



I took a lot of time to figure out what I really wanna do, I did think I found it already, last week, I just quit my job, my mother asked me why, I can't even let my friends know, cause that's so silly, for the economic depression, most of companies made downsize, and I worked for a big global company, maybe...maybe it's silly. but I just did, I don't regret it anymore, and glad I did it. I know that's not the thing I wanna do clearly. you might wanna ask me what I wanna do, frankly, I just got the opportunity !!! and the interview on next Monday.I think that's a "Maktub", I hope you read this novel, it mentions the "Maktub", I know if you really wanna do something inside, you will get the assistance from whole world( I guess it's too exaggerated) ,



people do the jobs they don't really wanna do, but if you loathe doing that, why you waste your life doing that? I think I have not enough "one" year on the job I am not interest in.I know my way , and always on the road.



all I want to say is when you reach for the stars , you may not quite get one, but you won't come up with a handful of mud, either!!! that's what I say to myself everyday.




Enjoying the life I have at present, laying on my bed and reading the books, sometimes watching the movies, I kind of enjoyinhg it,I need take a rest, seriously. not just a short term.lazy girl~